More About Dieting
I think that one of my biggest struggles with loosing weight is emotional/stress eating. I’m not even sure why I do it, which is what makes it more difficult to control. I KNOW that food will never ‘cure’ whatever it is I’m struggling with or stressing out about, but it’s as tho logic flies out of my brain when it comes to this.
Weight was never even a thought on my mind in my teen years and even in my first year of marriage… until I had my first baby. Since then it’s always on my mind and a constant battle that I have yet to overcome even once since I started having children.
And the stress eating is the hardest because I don’t care in the moment… but then I feel guilty, which makes me want to eat more, which makes me feel guilty… It’s all a vicious cycle that needs to end, but I’m not exactly sure how to make it end.
The One About Meditation & Peace
“Ouch!” went the checkbook this morning.. I paid the bill for the well. But I’m praising the Lord for his provisions!!
Im having a quiet moment right now. We’re outside, so the children are occupied swinging and playing. The baby is sleeping peacefully… I can hear her deep sleepy breaths on the monitor next to me. It’s so peaceful.
I’ve been thinking a lot lately about what it means to meditate on the Lord and on His word. I think I may have mentioned it before… tho I’m not sure . Sometimes I can’t quite remember what I blog here and what I write in my paper journal. LOL! What does meditating on the Lord mean exactly? To meditate means to reflect. To engage in thought or contemplation. So if we are to meditate on the Lord and his Word we are to reflect upon Him and contemplate his words. I know that I get so caught up on the day to day busy-ness of life and often only take those 15-30 mins of devotions after the children go to bed. I go through the motions of prayer before meals, but I’m not really reflecting on the Lord during those times. I’ve decided to change this… starting small. I’m going to put a verse that really touches me up on our dry erase board in the kitchen to start with. I’m always looking at that board so it’ll remind me… I long to be in a real relationship w/ the Lord… not just an aquaintance relationship.
The One with Me… Without Mud!
The One About the Porch Garden
Since our house is on the market and our soil doesn’t grow veggies very well (or perhaps I don’t tend garden well enough??) I decided to plant some tomatoes and herbs on the porch. I had planned to do lettuce too, but after I was given some extra tomato plants I decided to plant those instead of the lettuce. I didn’t have enough boxes for both. Here are some pictures… as you can see mybasil looks very sad, tho 1/2 of it rallied w/ good sunshine yesterday!
The One About 10%
So I’ve been doing WW for a while now… and they say slow & steady wins the race, but I’d like to see faster results. But today is a reason to celebrate. I hit 10%!! In WW world that is a big deal! I’ve lost 22 lbs since January. I didn’t start WW until April and have lost 11 lbs since then. I’m pretty pleased, tho I wish it were faster… I still have 21.5 lbs to go tho… So I guess I’ve also hit my 1/2 way mark. Also… I’ve lost all my last pregnancy weight + 1 lb… So that’s another reason to celebrate.
Another One About the Well… and extra stuff too.
We received the bill for the well this morning. I have to admit I was a bundle of nerves opening it up… half of me didn’t want to know & half of me just wanted it over with. Praise the Lord it didn’t go over $4000!!! It was still more than *I* wanted it to be at the beginning, but it was only $10 more than I figured it out once the man who drilled the well gave me the figures. And thanks to Dave Ramsey’s program and the Lord’s leading we can actually pay cash for it. It will completely wipe us out… but we can pay it. Yay!
Other Random Topics:
- My basil is so sad looking. I can’t figure out what to do with it… so I moved it into full sun in hopes that will help. I read up on it a bit more last night and found it likes well drained soil… I don’t think the box it’s in has well drained soil, so I need to figure out what to do about that.
- We got all summery yesterday and set up the kiddie pool. The kids had a blast in it and I actually took a few minutes to relax and read while they were playing in it.
- I’m reading Clara’s War right now. It’s the true story of a young girl/teen who survived the German Occupation in Poland. I’m only in chapter 3 and I have to admit I’m highly disturbed by the evil that is present in the Russians and the Nazis. It’s hard for me to believe that anyone can be as evil as they were … and sad to think that this was only 70 or so years ago. I know people say that the wars today are just as bad… and they probably are, but the seeming disregard for human life to the point that is described in this book it horrific. I cannot even bring myself to type them…. yet people lived through this. It’s no wonder that the men who fought over there and the people who lived through it rarely talked about it. It’d be easier to just try to put it from your mind, yet I don’t think they ever could.
The Grumpy One… for June
I was so grumpy today. It didn’t help that Alyssa is super fussy today as well, but *I* was most likely the grumpiest of us all. I don’t even really know why…. and I hate it when that happens. I needed to change it, so I brought everyone outside and started to plant a flowerbed out in the back yard. It’s pretty… it’s looking good… unfortunately Alyssa started screaming about 10 mins before I finished. Yes, I’ll admit… I finished and sang to her over her crying, hoping to calm her down.
It didn’t help much. I was hoping it does. Gardening usually lifts my spirits a bit…. but I think w/ Alyssa crying and me feeling rushed and harried at the end it just didn’t do the trick.
Maybe a large bowl of ice cream will tonight…. (And yes… I do have the points, Rachael!! lol! )
The "slept through the night" one!
Alyssa slept through the night last night. I’m pretty sure it was a fluke, though. We were at my Moms until very late and she was so exhausted. She slept from about 10:30 until around 5 am! That’s 7.5 hrs and the very first time she’s done that. Needless to say I was shocked. I woke up around 2:30… her usual waking time… and then dozed off until 3:15. And then I was worried… I worried that she was ok (cause she was verrry fussy going down which isn’t like her either) So I tossed and turned and worried… then scrouged around for the monitor and listened to her breathing and realized she was just fine. LOL! Funny how we mamas can’t wait for them to sleep through and then spend all that time worrying when they do!
In other news:
- The well is complete and most of the mess cleaned up. Yay!
- Matt was offered an evening job by one place and a weekend job by another and decided to take both on top of his current job. They are only temporary, but will help rebuild our ‘emergency fund’ that the well just wiped out. *sigh* I’m going to be “single mom” for a while… but I feel worse for Matt because that’s a whole lot of working for one guy.
- No one has come to see the house yet. I’m a little torn on that… part of me is relieved and part of me is disappointed, but all of me is trusting God that it’s in HIS timing.
The One With the Picture…
Needless to say I am SORE today…
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